Han Su Rii

untuk yang tertanya2 (aku maleh nak jawab bnda yg sm berulangkali...huhu)

Han Su Rii.

this is actually my chinese name. instead of using my real name (as in birth certificate), i'd rather use this name. for many reasons. yep, safety is one of them. personal preference too...but as i said...there are many reasons for Han Su Rii. i just want to keep them to myself.

Han: Family name for muslim, especially for my father's name.
Su: Revived
Rii: Cheerful

so basically, i am Su Rii. it can be Suri too. either way, sebutan & maknanye sm je. k. ur choice :)

got that? jgn ty2 lg. maleh aku nak menjawabnye.
sekian.

Terawih

1^st time utk taun ni aku trwih kt Mahallah Asiah. Itupon sbb bbrp ari ni asik ujn je kt uia pas mgrib. So nk ke msjid tu renyah sket la. Bw Ego aku tu, bsh le aku nti. Sbb tu aku mik kptusan solat trwih kt Asiah je. My personal preference mstila kt masjid. Knp ye? Sbb imam die lelaki. Berimamkan perempuan dgn berimamkan lelaki, perasaannye lain. Mgkin sbb lelaki bacaannya nyaring, penuh smgt. Imam ppuan ne leh nk bc cmtu. Ckupla skdr di dgr oleh ma’mun. suara pn lmh lmbut penuh beralun. Bacaan pon plahan…lau kt msjid, imam bc surah pnjg2 satu2 rakaat tu. So aku lbh prefer imam lelaki. Anyhow, imam lelaki ke ppuan ke, niatnye sm je. Nk solat terawih. Nk rebut pahala.

Solat kt masjid walaupon imam bc pnjg2 tp still kat msjid yg habis lg awl dr kt Asiah. Knp? Sbb kt Asiah after 4 rakaat of terawih, we have a short tazkirah which is not really ‘short’…hehe. I just found out that ;) so speaking of, mula2 aku kurg suka dgr coz it sounds ‘judgemental’…kebiasaan ceramah yg aku dgr, lau org Melayu yg bg talk, they tends to be a judgemental person rather than choosing a more hikmah way to express things. Tatau la nape…are we trained to be a judgemental person…? Ty la dr sniri. Aku sniri walau aku tk suke ‘judgemental person’…but I do…most of d time. Mgkin btul kite jd cmni sbb kite da d trained scr tk sedar…knp msti cmni lau kite da tau bnda ni tk elok. Krn kite mcm ni le org tk nk dkt ng kite. Aku tk ckp ikot pglmn org. ini pglmn aku sniri. Slh 1 sbb org tk nk trma kite n cr kite sbb kite awal2 lg da judge org. sape kite sbnrnye nk judge org tu baik org ni jht. Hy Allah yg layak utk judge. Bkn kite. Hr ni kite judge org….kite tgk die tk pki tudung so otk kite da stat ckp, oh…die ni bkn bdk baik ni. Die ni msti tu ler…ni ler….mcm2. kn? Pe slhnye lau kite nmpk die cmtu, kite doa kt Allah smoge diberi hidayah kpd die…itu lbh baikkn? Esok luse ntah2 bl Allah da bg hidayah kt kite, org yg kite dok kt bukan2 tu tb2 jauh lbh baik dr kite…ha, cemana?? Btw, I used to be tht person. And aku tahu betapa teruknye aku dulu (skrg pon bkn le bagus pon)…so aku lau bleh nk ubh dr aku ke arah lbh baik. Aku tk nk jd org mcm tu spt mn aku tk suke org judge aku. Manusia ni sm je sbnrnye. Nk org acknowledge die…nk org respect die.

So berbalik kpd kakak yg bg tzkirah td…lm2 dgr tzkirah die aku jd suke. Aku stuju dgn ape yg kakak tu ckp. Hati mnusia ni kering…kering dgn zikrullah. sentiase tcari2. Cari ape? Pape jela nk isi kekosongan hti. Tpulang kpd individu. Ad org cr ilm…ad org cr hrte. Ad org cr cinta. Ad org cr agama.

aku harap ramadhan kali ini mmbawa makna yg cukup mndalam dlm hidup aku. :)

tQ for today

dear diary...

hehehe. hello. hi. msti awk rindu sy kn? da lm sy tk update. bz? sket2. tp lbh kpd tkde mende nk ckp. tp arini sy ada somtgh yg sy msti bgtau. sy smlm tdo lmbt. sbbnye dok lyn cite cine kt laptop. so bgn pon lmbt. tghr br bgn. huhuhu. akibatnye, janji nk jmp usk (ustaz Kabuye) pkl 2 tlewat le ke 2.30. truk btoi. huhuhu.

so i went to his office, there was 1 sister there was having a discussion wit ust. so i just came in and sat next to her [wat cm office sniri lak. ust tk suh duduk pon ak da selamba bdk p duduk. cth pljr yg ske ikt kpale sniri. jgn ikut k.] so ust pon gilir2 ler entertain tht sis and sy and his typing of somthg wit his pc [trust me, he's a very bz person and tk pnh aku tgk ust wasting his time!] so for d rapport, ust ty kbr sy:

usk: Suriyanti, so hw r u doing?
me: i'm fine walhamdlh. hw bout u ust? [ceh, gy ty tu cm le aku da lm tk jmp ust walhal br smlm jmp kt clas ms laja maqasid assyari'ah-aku dgn bgganye jwb solan ust tp ust ty len aku jwb len...tk ke haru mcm tuh!]
usk: oh...tht's good. ive been bz with ths thg [bnd kt lptop ust tu ler] and meetg ths morng...[bla..bla..bla]

perlu ke aku nk tlis stiap bnd aku borak ni? kang leh jdik skrip tv lak...

so while waiting for ust to finish his task, aku diam smbil mmndg sekeliling. kendian aku tnmpk le buku "Islamic Ethics for Everyday Life". ini buku yg ust dok cite smlm dlm clas nih...di sbbkn aku tlalu curious nk tau wht is it inside d book [sblm ni mn ad buku ni. ni bku ust n kenkawan die tlis. so die tgh check le kot ada slh pape typing error ke...pape jela. mn aku tau. aku tk pnh publish bku.] maka aku dgn muke pnuh tk malunye...

me: Ust, can i hv a look at ths book? [elok aje jri tlunjuk aku sentuh buku tu]
usk: oh yes2. sure. u may want to have a look at ths too [ust mbelek2 beberapa buku yg b'ada di atas mejanye n mghulurkan 1 kt aku. aiseh...cm knl je...]....itulah majalah Al-Hunafa, latest edition. ust mmg tk pnh lpa bg kt sesape je student die mjlh dakwah tu. aku suke bc mjlh tu. sblm2 ni da ad yg ust bg kt aku.. aku smpn lg.

aku belek2. cover die ln. quality of paper yg die gn pon len. the content pon sgt mnarik. belek punye belek aku trnmpk sekeping gmbo ust+a lady+3 children.

me:ust, is ths ur family photo? [dgn sgt teruja je aku btanya]
ust: yes. there is one japanese brother took a pic of us. i didnt know it so after i see the pic in d mag, i was shocked...[bla3]

hahahah. ths is nice! aku tk pnh lg tgk n knl ank2 serta wife ust. br aku tau ank ust 3org and wife die....mcm melayu! tk silap aku dl ad org ckp indon....tp mukenye sgt Melayu...kulit cerah. cantik! beruntung isteri ust sbb ust baik orgnye. tk bpe lm lps tu, ad org ketuk pntu blik ust. Anis!!! aku sgt tkejut. gmbire pon ada. nk tau sape Anis? die kwn br aku. aku knl die last week ms kmi sm2 dgt for consultation dgn ust. she's malay. pakai niqab! [aku sgt kagum. aku sniri pon tk pnh tpikir cmtu. sll yg pki niqab hitam cm burqa tu foreigner je.] anis ng sorg kwn die. kmi bsalam2 n bpeluk.

Anis: kaksue!!![anis teruja nmpk aku. hahahah. hebat tk aku ni, ad peminat fanatik. hihi.] it's so great to see u again [dipeluknye aku...]
me: me too. hey, actually i wanted to sms u asking whether we can come here together to meet ust ...but then i thought u might not be free on my free...so...
Anis: it's good then. wah...seronoknye dpt jmp akak balik [see...kan aku da ckp aku ad fanatic fan....hahahah]
me: ok2. next time, we come together k? ada kwn lg bgus kan.

actually, d othr reason aku tk sms anis pon sbb aku ad a personal matters to be discussed wit ust. family matters. so i dont thnk tht it is such a good idea to let others know bout it. i might not be comfortable to hv ths kind of discussion regardg my family matters in front of others. ng ustz pon segan gak dl. tp lm2 da bese. tkde org yg plg bgus bg nsht kt aku stkt ni except usk. that's y i can be open to him. he's not tht kind of a JUDGEMENTAL PERSON. that's very2 imp if we want to seek for advice or opinion. maklum le, stgh org bl kite cite family kite camtu cmni dorg akn pikir len. dorg judge kite based on our family background. aku le plg allergic org2 mcm nih.

aku borak2 ng anis jap and mpersilakan die duduk [mcm le aku ni tuan rumah kn. hahahah. aku tlg ust je lgpon ust tgh cbuk entertain tht sis. muke sis tu aku tgk bkerot smcm je. agknye die rs tgangu ng kmi ke hape aku tatau le. tpi aku dtg bkn men serbu sbb aku da wat appointment ng ust bforehand. heheh]

kami pandang kiri knn. krusi ad due je. 1 da duduk leh tht sis, satu lg yg aku duduk. tetibe tht sis bgn. da hbis kot ty ng ust. so aku kongsi duduk dgn syafa and anis dok sesorg kt krusi 1 lg. btw, lpa nk introduce. anis bwk kwn, it's syafawati not alia as last week. tkejot aku td. aku mati2 igt org tu Alia. nk tau npe aku tkejot? sbb budak tu paki niqab cam anis! heheh. yela br last week aku jmp alia die pki tudung bese je cm aku tb2 ths week da tkr pki niqab! msti le aku tkejut.

smbil aku belek2 Hunafa', Alia da stat ty2 solan kt ust. aku biarkan je wlopon jelas skali die ptong line aku. tp aku tk kisah sbb die da ckp die dtg skejap je n nk cpt sbb dorg rushing for a class ke hape ntah. so aku ilek2 je belek2 Hunafa' smbil psg tlinge dgr pe si alia ty and skali skale nympok. tpi aku lbh tggelam dgn Hunafa' sbnrnye smpi ustz pon tegur. aku punye le tkejut igt ust ty aku pape tp aku tk dgr n tkot ust igt aku disrespect him ke pe smpi tlepas mjlh kt tgn.

usk: no. it's ok. so u're reading it now? [aku tsengih2 mcm kerang busuk dan mempamerkn barisan gigi aku yg tk putih mcm iklan dlm tb tuh]
me: yes ust. ths is very interesting. i can see major changes in ths mag compared to d old edition. it's so colorful and d articles are...interesting. i like ths writing.
ust: it is. i'l get one copy for u. may be next week. [ust smbg lyn solan2 anis].

maleh nk cite pnjg2, anis pon blah le ng syafa tggl aku je ng ust. sblm blah, die tlg aku sekat pntu office ust ng selipar. die kt die risau tggl aku b'2 ng ust je. lau bleh die nk temankn aku sbb tkot ust tk slesa tp sb die ad clas ke hape so...aku ckp, it's ok. lgpon pntu blik tbuke.

so as a start, aku ty ust sal yusuf n zulaikha. bncg2 so ust btau cite tu dturunkn oleh israiliyat dr turun tmerun. ulama tk cpi kt sepakat pon dorg kawin ke x. only ibn kathir je dlm tafsir die ckp dorg kawin. so tpulg le nk mik yg ne 1. bkn hal aqidah pon.

solan kedua sal aqiqah n qurban. lau leh avoid, tkyah la bg kt nonmuslim. lau tkleh avoid, bg je le. kn tgk situation. ust bg cth kt uganda ms nk sembelih korban nonmuslim join n tlg siat kulit2 haiwan korban tu. its very common there sbb dlm 1 family mmg sllunye ad yg muslim n nonmuslim. tk sume dlm fmily tu muslim la. so bnd2 cmni susah nk avoid. takkan dorg da tlg kite tk bg sket pon....so for da'wah purposes, its ok.

solan ke3 aku lak, ape tggjwb kite kpd sorg bapa yg tk btggjwb & tk prnh btggjwb serta tk prnh tggg n jwb pape utk kite. xphm? phm kn....
[jap g la aku smbg. nk g solat lu. ]